Have Stopped...Konon

Poiiii Poiiii..Konon i have stopped hoping konon post sebelum ni..Balik umah lepas post, asyik2 sebut nama dia jugak..Ceh...Boleh blah la der..!!!hahaha..nak buat cam ner, mak banang ni pun tak tau nak buat cam ner dah..

Sudah la labu, nak stopped hope, benda pertama ko ingat lepas ko tulis, dia jugak kan..Cisss..Sebok je usin tu..Bior le teman nak ingat kat dia..huhu..

Tapi hari ni sentap jugak mak..Sebab mak tau, dia lah wanita yang kau pilih, bak kata dia..So mak, rela tak rela pun,want or don't want pun terpaksalah pasrah dan reda..

Hari tu sebab BB aku takde BIS, so aku tulis la kesedihan tu dalam phone dulu..belum sempat pindah..meh aku paste kat bawah ni..

When u stop responding, I know from that very moment, I will never hear anything from anymore..it is just because u don't care..a man who likes a woman, no matter how busy he is, he will always find the time for the one he love at least for a moment..

 

now I know, the truth behind all this, is that the truth that I am scared to admit..all this while, you only search for me when you have no one to turn to and you are feeling lonely..

 

I am the last resort..if this time you ask me the same question u ask previously, don't u think I am bad?my answer this time is yes u are..u are bad..how you come and steal my heart and left me alone with no where to turn to..if I know from the start, this is how you are going to treat me, I wouldn't want to be friends with u or even fall in love..it is just because this is fate and I have to go through all this once again..

 

to meet with the wrong person again and again till I learn my lesson..how could you be able to do this..how could you break my heart..pls don't try to tell me that you like me if that is the last thing u think of in pleasing me..I rather end up alone than have to be the last one u think off everyday or in a month or year..

I just couldn't keep this feeling anymore..all this while I have tried to stay calm..but tonight I just seem to be so emotional..it is not your fault, it is mine for believing every single words that u said..it is my fault and solely me..how could I blame you when I am the one who is helplessly in love and believe in you without doubt..

I just seems out of alternatives to confide myself that this will one day be out of memory..it might be easy for you, women come and go in your life as easy as u changes your clothes..it is easy for u to fall in love with every woman u meet..but do u think it is easy for me to forget all the things we had together?

I know now you are happy with the one u love..I have nothing more than happiness to convey to you..sad but true I am not the one who can provide u happiness..the biggest lie everyone can tell is that they are happy seeing u with others..even I know, deep inside I'm lying when I said that I'm happy seeing u with someone else..

 

how could you be happy when u know, the one you love doesn't care about you anymore, and turns all attentions and love to someone else..but if only happiness from someone else is the only thing can make u happy, then I will be happy for you even though while I'm writing this, I couldn't stop myself from crying..

Oh how I miss u so much..I miss you very dearly..I hate it when only tears is the only thing that can help me to feel better..I hate that I had to cry again and know that you will never come back..I just missed you so much..very deeply..

Dalam masa tak berapa lama tu aku boleh tulis banyak tu..Sedih kan..