I have stopped hoping...

I have stopped from hopping everything will be better..
not because i am weak..but just because i realized, i am not loved and liked by him...
i am just not more than a toy..

I have just stopped imagining things will be better in months to come..
just because, i cry seeing the happiness of you with her...

I have just stopped hoping for miracle to come...
cause i know, when you come along, you are going to hit me right in the heart..
and left me alone to suffer...

I just don't know where all my strengths have gone, but i have just stopped hoping..
Because i know i can't be better than her, i can't be someone else whom i not, i don't know how to treat you nicely maybe..

But all this statement will be a contradiction, since a part of me is still hoping for miracle to come..Even though the slightest chance is never to be known..I leave all this in the hand of God..